I'm so sorry

 I drive as I can’t see anything but the road that I have to traverse. My mind is empty, and I can’t feel anything. I’m losing a lot of sleep – while I knew I have to sleep enough for the baby inside of my belly, he’s innocent, he’s not responsible for all the pain that I feel but he has to take the responsibility – I’m so sorry – I know I’m not ready for all of this, but this is life and you have no time to choose what you want to happen in your life. Time flies, how I wish I wasn’t even existed - ever, but now look at me, because of my selfishness – I’m going to bring an innocent human being to the world, dear my baby boy, I’m so sorry. How I pray every single time for you to have a beautiful life – not like mine. What should I do? I wish I have someone to tell me what to do, but oh life, I realize I was born for no one, I have to take responsibility for every shit that happens, and the hell knows who the fuck cares if it’s not you – yourself.